Emotions and 52 days!

This week has been tearful.

It started last weekend when I face-timed my best friend Jess to wish her Bon Voyage for her adventure to South Africa with her husband Glenn. By the end of the call I was all weepy and could only utter words along the lines of "please be careful" with Jo'berg's crime rate in the back of my mind, and I love you. They got there fine and are settling! Phew.

Fred has been a bit emotional about the school term ending and about the fact he will miss school.

Yes he's young, yes he's adaptable and yes he'll be fine.

But when your baby actually understands change and the huge implications it has, then it hurts me physically.

I've had a few tough clients this week, the parents themselves aren't difficult but I don't know how much I've managed to help them ( I know I'm being hard on myself) sleep is a difficult issue to fix for some children and one of my dearest friends is struggling with her newborns sleep and there is so little I can do from here.

I want to go now for so many reasons.

I want to stay put for so many reasons.

I want to get to Cambridge for so many reasons.

Change is big, change is hard, we'll get through the next 52 days- WHAT THE &*#$!!!!!!

Breathe, just breathe and have a bloody good cry about it all. Lucky I have a husband who will shed a tear with me and hold me tight when I need it but also give me space to feel crazily over anxious.

Thanks to James, Julia and Miao for the hugs today. Your love is always appreciated. <3